Grargh. Programming should not be a chore. I would enjoy writing the webcam plugin for RavenGive, or some new quizzes, or various other projects of my own I could do which might even possibly make me some money, but writing other people's programs, to their design, is disheartening and annoying. Even more so when I'm stumped for a good way to do something; I know that if I just start doing it, I'll come up with a good way, but that'll mean the way I've been doing it is wrong, which will be annoying. But if I don't start doing it, I don't come up with a good way. I know that this means I should just start. I know this with my brain. My fingers and my time-usage, however, refuse to submit to such a ruling. Thus I spend the day becoming more and more annoyed, with the project, with myself, with everything else. Food becomes unappealing, music becomes irritating, TV becomes boring, the internet... well, the internet is always rubbish. And I glower. And I feel bad for not having done as much of the project as I told the paying customer I would have, this week. I still have a few hours, but to catch up on what I should have been able to do in a week, in hours, is borderline impossible. Ooh, but that declaration is a pretty incentive. Now I work.
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